My Kafkaesque Life..

And I'm looking to the sky to save me
Looking for a sign of life
Looking for something to help me burn out bright

I'm looking for complication
Looking cause I'm tired of lying
Make my way back home when I learn to fly

I think I'm done nursing the patience
I can wait one night
I'd give it all away if you give me one last try
We'll live happily ever trapped if you just save my life
Run and tell the angels that everything's alright...

I'm looking to the sky to save me
Looking for a sign of life
Looking for something to help me burn out bright

Hari Belated Raya 2009

Only pictures you see of me here is Hari Raya pictures...I'm not so photogenic.


Happy Belated Raya 2009, everyone.

Selamat Hari Raya 2009

Nothing like a sappy commercial to boost up your raya mood.

Selamat Raya Everyone..

Birthday comes early this year..

No wise man ever wished to be younger - Jonathan Swift

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Tun Dr. Mahathir - The autograph

Why is that when I defend UMNO or the Malays I am labelled a racist but not when others speak up for Chin Peng? - Tun Mahathir Mohamad

My wife and her students went to Yayasan Perdana yesterday for an audience with Tun Mahathir. The Russian pre-medical students initiated the idea for the visit and was given a positive reply by the Yayasan.

The mostly malay students sang to him in Russian, heard his speech and had a question and answer session. All of them came back teary eyed and aghast with Tun's knowledge, frankness, candour and humour. They came back a believer just like I did when I first met Tun, 15 years ago. I was a blue eyed chemist from Nestle listening to Dato Seri's talk in a symposium. I was a different person from then on.

Now, my wife even asked me to let her read some of Tun's book that I have in my collection.

Before she went, I made her promise to ask Tun to autograph 2 of my books. The Malay Dilemma and The Challenge (which I bought way back in 2001). She told Tun that I was his most ardent admirer and have lots of his books and writings plus my addiction to his blog. He signed The Malay Dilemma first and upon seeing the second book, he wrote my name as per the name he saw on the book.

Thank you, Tun.

Treatise of Human Nature (Part 1)

The heights of popularity and patriotism are still the beaten road to power and tyranny. Flattery to treachery. Standing armies to arbitrary governments. The glory of God to the temporal interest of the clergy. - David Hume

Fancy title to explain the very basic of human nature. It was written by a philosopher nearly 300 years ago named David Hume. He wrote that ‘ideas’ are just images/words that attaches to certain words that can be recalled when something similar is met. Sounds complicated, right? Not quite, imagine if you see a cat (the body, tail, etc), so if you go to another country where the ‘cat’ species is kind of different (more bigger, hairy, etc), you would still recognise the being as a cat, not a dog. The colours and size could be different but the image or the associated characteristics would be similar, so the mind would not be confused.

Why do I want to write about it?

See, one of my female staff who updates me on regular star gossips and such she reads in the papers told me the story about a well known Ustaz ‘Rock’ and this cute tudung wearing singer so called affair. The Ustaz is married with kids and the lady is single. I told her a few weeks ago that I think the Ustaz is a load of crap and though he can preach about religion and sing a few dakwah songs on an Astro channel does not make him impervious to the temptation of the flesh. My tudung wearing staff took the opposite point of view. She told me that she believes the Ustaz is innocent.

Yesterday, she told me that I was right. The wife of the so called Ustaz had filed for divorce citing that the Ustaz had not come home since February and agreed that there was something going on with the husband and the singer. She told the media that the husband had told her that he wanted to marry the singer, strange as he told the media that all the speculations about him and the singer were untrue. Ohh...he also quote some ayats from the holy scripture condemning those who thought otherwise.

Anyway, I don’t care. None of my business. People often quote scripture to serve their own purpose, tell me something I don’t already know.

But,what I care is the hordes of male and female admirers of the rocker turned ‘pendakwah’ that will be shattered by this latest news.

What would tie this up with what David Hume proposes 3 centuries ago?

I elaborate.

See, people associated these so called ustaz or ‘pendakwah bebas’ as honourable, religious and do what you preach type of person. Heck, if you been on TV, you really must be doing something right. If you can quote the scripture, sing some Arabic songs..it will probably enhance the stature of the person. How many equate male leading prayers as role models? C’mon put up your hands..

Well, not quite.

See, religion is not about the superficial stuff. It’s the inner stuff. Stuff that you cannot see, taste or perceive outside. Read the Quran, how many injunctions about what you wear versus how many injunctions about how you should treat the religion, family, friends and community.

Being 40, I have been privy to some things. I have personally seen a few persons that normally leads doa and prayers turned around completely upon reaching Hatyai, Thailand. I have seen a person that teaches strictness in clothing to his female family members, screwing with a female companion elsewhere. When it comes to this, believe me...I have seen or heard it all.

Grow up, people.

Why I hate mondays...

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you

It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Oh, Thursday doesn't even start

It's Friday I'm in love


(Lyrics for Friday I'm in Love - The Cure)

What I've learned at 40

And in the end, it's not the years in your life that counts. It's the life in your years - Abraham Lincoln

Nearly got myself killed twice. Once, in a near car collision on my sister's wedding day and the other one falling down 10 meters off a mountain during a hike. Those aren’t accidents, I was stupid and careless both times.

Guys cannot fake orgasm.

As corny as it sounds, I actually met my wife in a bookstore. She was holding a book on sexual reproduction. She seemed a bit out of breath when I said ‘Hi’, which I thought might be because of my mere presence…she was actually hiding the book from my sight.

Politicians have speechwriters. Stupid ones have a few more than the smart ones.

The biggest organ a guy should worry about possessing is the size of his heart.

The grass is sometimes greener on the other side.

You could find a civilized man in a small kampong and you could find an uncivilized man in a cosmopolitan city. It has nothing to do with education or money.

At times, money can buy happiness.
Women need shoes as much as a man needs fancy electronic gadgets. Sometimes men likes gadgets and shoes too.

I get mad and I get even….most of the time.

I write better than I do talking. Problem with live debates is that you cannot spend 5 minutes writing it down before answering.

Never dated a model but I was engaged to a stewardess once.

A good heart is better than a good intention. Good intentions always have a way of screwing up.

Fuck is actually the most flexible word in English. You could be pissed, ecstatic, happy or hurt and describe the feeling with the F word. Strange but fu**ing true.

A real patriot is a politician who tells the truth no matter what the consequences. A real rakyat is the person who defends this person.

Life little mysteries, I went to my cousin’s wedding. Took a photo with the married couple along with the bride’s best friend. In the photo, I was with my ex-fiancé and the bride’s friend was with her boyfriend. The bride’s best friend turned out to be my wife nearly a decade after the wedding. I did not talk or knew her then. In fact, neither one of us even remembered taking the picture together.

I like to stare at my uncle whom has the uncanny resemblance of my late father. He is uncomfortable by it.

Parents have a favourite child though they always say that they treat everyone the same. I suspect, I’m not my mom favourite though she tells me so.

Live simply, love generously, Care deeply and speak kindly. We should live by these values plus be like a fruit tree. You give sweet fruits even if stones were thrown at you.

Rosa Parks sat so Martin Luther could walk. Martin Luther walk so Obama could run. Jay Z said that…now who said rappers can only cuss..?